11/23 Workshop

Today we presented out monologues as if we were going on an audition as in "Hello my name is Nicole and I'll be performing a monologue from X by Y. I'll be portraying character Z." This was really nerve wracking. One of my notes was that my voice was a bit shaky and I shouldn't have been so nervous because it wasn't a real audition so...I don't know. I think I really want to impress Joy.

I just wrote "I just really want..." before remembering something both Luke and Joy have said; in acting and in life, nothing is ever "just" it is always something important.

We also talked about the idea of "everything happens for a reason" or in this case "every part happens or doesn't happen for a reason." This is something I'm still trying to wrap my head around. I mean talking about it with Megan and Becky on the way home, it made perfect sense. All 3 of us had an example of this. But then the big rock hit me. And it's hard to talk about without sounding needy. But anyone who knows me can figure out what I'm talking about. And it still hurts. Pathetic right? So trying to believe that is really really hard.